The day before the deadline.. Seriously how do I do these things?!

After throwing about 5/6 potential plots out and shredding my thoughts to pieces to find an idea.. I made it ;w; And I just hope it'll get me somewhere y'know.. That my writing's finally getting somewhere where it can bloom. Not that the internet isn't a great place to share your work, I mean I've gotten lots of feedback since I started posting things and started to put my stories online. I've improved lots! I wouldn't even think of competing back then, I only wrote for a small audience, for the people who were interested..

But now I kind of took a step outside my comfort zone to actually send it to people who're much more into that  than I am.. It makes me feel terribly anxious on the one hand.. But on the other hand I'm glad I did! I want to get it out there!

Even if I don't win this contest, I've had lots of fun writing (despite the enormous levels of stress I reached, gah.. It was terrible!), I don't want to be know for wanting to win everything.. I want to be known as someone who enjoys what she does, what she writes and is still anxious after almost 6 years of serious writing.

I've finished so many chaptered stories along the way, had so many writer's blocks yet won them all over.. I grew in many more ways than I could think of back then. It became more mature, more focused on far more serious topics than I'd write about when I was 13. It has grown out to a passion as well, I can't even call it a hobby anymore because it almost feels like a job! (Despite I don't get paid for it..)

I want to keep doing this, even if it's just something I do in my spare time.. But there's nothing more that I'd want than making this to do for a living.. Of course, it's a tough one to get into, but it'd be sad if I'd never try.

It sure has been a fruitful day, and I deserve some rest. Tomorrow fun times with Caro and Immi in Eindhoven ^^/ Girls day out, I'm taking my camera so I'll post lots of pics tomorrow when I get back!