See what I did there, sarcasm.

Gaah my moodswings are killing me right now, just lovely! I was supposed to enjoy my day home alone since my parents went to their friends in France along with my sisterss.. And there I was spending half of the day doing stupid chores and squirming from cramps.

I've been going from extremely happy (this morning), to feeling like breaking something (this afternoon) to extremely lonely /foreveraloneface. I hate this, I hate those damn moodswings, the goddamn craps that give me sleepless nights and then my cold that's been getting a bit worse again, AGAIN! Give me a break, womanhood, give me one time without the cramps, without the PMSing and without the .. gah just go away!

I really have nothing interesting to say than to just nag, I feel friggin' useless because I've got nothing to do right now.. Other than finish my oneshot for the fiction contest that's due in 5 days! Yay for stress, yay for working under pressure.. Seriously..Can I please have something to do? Just please.. Give me a challenge! Give me something to keep me busy! Guh, I don't even know anymore .__.

And to top all that off I've gained weight.. Again! I've been so stressy lately that it hasn't been that great for my health.. I've been stuffing my face whenever I felt the slightest bit of anxiety, or nervousness..I've been terribly fidgety lately, my hormones are raging like there's no tomorrow in the way of me being angry or sad for no particular reason, or for the stupidest things happening.. Even worse that my migraine's been torturing me as well, not as much as usual.. But it's there.. And it's just waiting for "the right time" to strike! I just know it!

I'll be glad when it's nearing the end of the month, which means I'll have something I can go to instead of being stuck at home like I am now.. I wanna get out of here so badly that I'm almost getting desperate to get a job.. Just so I can save up enough money to live on my own. I'm not staying here much longer than is necessary..

Also, someone has been calling me through an Unknown number for 4 days.. The fuck.. Why would someone call me like that 2 times a day for already 4 days instead of sending me a text.. I told my dad and he said I shouldn't pick up.. Luckily my phone subscription will expire in a few days, so I'm getting a new phone with a new number. Sigh, thank god.. No more friggin' unknown caller.. I'm thinking of getting myself one of those andriod phones, just like my sister got a few days ago.. It's an HTC, and it's amazing! So if I'm able to get my hands on one of them.. I'll have to really practise on my puppy eyes.. since my dad's being kinda... shitty about me getting new stuff lately. ah well, we'll see what happens.