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▶I've had it with feeling uncomfortable.◀

▷I've had it with wanting to be more than I can be.◁

▶I've had it with trying but failing.◀

▷I've had it with feeling insecure.◁

▶I've had it with doubting◀

▷I've had it with finding myself not attractive.◁

▶I've had it with all those disappointments.◀

▷I've had it with not feeling confident with how I look.◁

▶I've had it with everyone who invades my personal space.◀

▷I've had it with feeling useless.◁

▶I've had it with being powerless.◀

▷I've had it with not being in control.◁

▶I've had it with feeling watched every time I do something◀

▷I've had it with being made a fool out of◁

But mostly..

I've had it with letting this all get the better of me.

I just want one day where I do not feel guilty about something I did.

Then people wonder why I cannot handle compliments.. One can only accept compliments given to them when one is confident and selfconcious.

I'm far from confident... But I'm terribly selfconcious, and that usually has a negative effect on me. I've tried so many times before to change things about me, telling myself time after time again; "Tomorrow when I wake up, I'll be a different person.. I'm going to work on the things I want to achieve."

But time and time again I find myself not living up to my own words.

At least the weather's nice, a good day for a walk.