Gah. Seriously I haven't been feeling this stressed in days.. I thought that once I would quit school everything would become at least a tad bit more relaxing.. But no~ It's all just the friggin' same!

Okay I've got it probably all thanks to myself, because no one else is at fault except me, right? The deadline for the Fiction contest is in two days and I threw 2/3 ideas out of the way already, so that doesn't help either. I'm feeling rather helpless because I just can't find the right plot that would suffice for this contest. 1000 words as a max is too damn little for me to put everything in that I want to put in! I'm used to writing at least 1000 as a minimum for contest.. 2000 words would have been a better max because it gives a much better and bigger space to write something in.

So my plan.. Staying up, despite I'm still not feeling well at all and the stress is eating away at my health. I'm still willing to participate, because it gives me a chance to get my work out there.. And that's my dream after all..

I think after I've finished this piece I'll probably just go lie down and not get up for most of the day.. Lucky me, I don't have anything useful to do anyway, right?

But beside all the shitty things to it, Caro has been of great help. She had to cope with my bitchiness, with my critics on my own work and my whining about being stuck and not wanting to continue anymore. She put all her time in helping me ;U; I feel kinda bad because of that actually.. So sweetheart, thank you SO much for putting yourself up to beta things for me, and even wasting your precious time on rp'ing with me to get to ideas ;w; I appreciate everything you've done for me so far.

Okay, so I've yet again wasted too much time that I could've spend writing. So I'll get my sorry ass back to work.

Today I'll leave you with a song that has been close to my recent mood, or well.. It gets quite close.. I've always been a big fan of these kind of songs, despite the grunting and screaming (what I'm not particularly fond off..) it's a song I enjoy listening to.. And yes, it's really called DIARRHEA, gotta love H-type Vocaloids! Just give it a try.. Who knows it's to your liking?

That reminds me, NANO'S ALBUM RELEASED IN JAPAN NOW! I'LL HAVE TO ORDER ASAP!