What a day.. or well, week actually. I've never know I could be so damn anxious about so many trivial things.. But they do affect me in many ways. I hardly get enough sleep, I eat rather irregularly and I spend too much time worrying..

Sometimes you gain some, sometimes you lose some.. Right now I'm losing some, so it seems. A knife in the back is something I really needed right now, Great! It's always when I'm crawling my way back up to "healing" myself.. I fall down again by just a little push. Isn't it great, that people always get you when you're at your weakest..

I don't know about you, person who reads this.. But is it really fair to backstab someone after you've always been there for them whenever they needed it.. Does it make sense that I am shocked that things are like this now or am I just being pathetic to act all butthurt here? Well, I think I've all rights to act butthurt.. Just as how we like to say it in G'Old Dutch; Ik voel me genaaid!

And that's only half of the things that drive me insane right now.. Sure, I'm worrying too much, I always am, right? Yeah, it's just all my fault. As always.

So yeah.. I'll probably be taking a while posting new replies to my rps.. So guys, I'm terribly sorry, I just want to feel at least a bit better before I can get myself to reply faster and stuff.. Please bear with me, I'm trying to get there.