Have you ever gotten to a point where just the smallest bit of tension blows you off completely?


Well that's exactly what's happening to me now. God I haven't been so emotionally instable since High school, and there I was thinking I've put that behind me. But no, everything's going fucking great! Fucking Fantastic!

I keep myself distant from people because I don't want to rub off my bad mood on them, I know they're worried and of course I'm glad they are. But it's not that I always feel the need to talk about it, I don't always want people to know what's going on simply because I'm not happy about it all happening. And of course some translate that to; "Oh she must be mad at me cuz she's being so bold." - Hooray for once again giving people the wrong idea. I now got to a point where I'd rather just shut up about everything that happens, just keep all my "problems" away from this blog, from facebook or from every other kind of social media just to prevent others from tripping balls if I have a bad day. I can't take it when people think they need to know what's going on.. Cuz that makes me feel guilty that I want to keep it to myself. There aren't particular people who do that, actually there's quite an amount that seems to think it's necessary to talk to me when I'm down.

Because I'm the kind of person who needs a moment to herself when she's sad. You see, I'm a very veeeeery talkative person when I'm around my friends, but what does it solve? They're not even involved in it so what could they possibly do? The last thing I want to do is getting people involved into my business.

I'm doing the best I can, but apparently "the best" is far from what I'm doing right now. The only thing I want is certain people getting off my back! That'd help me a lot already. Unfortunately those people do not even get to read this, well maybe I should just let them read what they've been putting me through the past few months, then we can all just laugh at how "stupid" my life is. Yay for being totally useless in some people's eyes.

God I need something fun... That's why I'm going to waste this night by playing DMMd and sleep in next morning.. It's been a while since I've got more than 5 hours of sleep. Lots of rest, that's exactly what I need!

Ah, and I went to Kelly's prom last night~ Was really a lot of fun! Here's a pic;